Party Traumatic.

Saturday, December 5, 2009

lost without love.

So close, no matter how far.
Couldn't be much more from the heart.
Never opened myself this way.
Life is ours, we live it our way.

All these words I don't just say.
& nothing else matters.

Cause you know sometimes words have two meanings,
in a tree by the brook,
there's a songbird that sings,
sometimes all of our thoughts are misgiven.

It felt like forever. It's only been three months. I miss love,I have to admit. It can get so lonely here. I never thought I'll need somebody until my brother found love of his own. Maybe its time I stop blaming him. Understand, move on with it. & finally be serious. I'm not fickle. Love me please? For once in my life, I feel so pathetic. Its not about money,not about family. For once all I need was love. I had money,I had family. Then I wondered why it still feels so empty inside. Until I understood what love means.

& today, Raily randomly asked how many girls I was dating. Apparently, NONE. Just good friends, not girlfriend materials.

If you can be my everything,the one that can love me for who I am and so much more.
The candy sweetness scent of you.
It bathes my skin I'm stained in you & all I have to do is hold you.
A kiss that lingers takes me in. I fall asleep inside of you.
There are no words, there's only truth.
Our feet don't even touch the floor,but nobody knows you like I do.
& the world they won't understand,yet I grow stronger in your hands.
We never sleep just holding hands,can't close my eyes when I'm with you.

& for that girl, I'll dedicate my life. For you.

True perfection has to be imperfect,
I know it sounds foolish but its true.
& I never felt so lost before.

Labels: Dream Girl.

fr3shjiv3 @ 4:31 AM

Thursday, November 12, 2009

I'm sorry for leaving you neglected. I'm back now, maybe just for awhile. Maybe forever. Neverthelessly I'm here today. Schedule's been damn hectic. APEC is killing me. Two more days till it's over. & I'm so gonna dread this Saturday lock-up duty. But oh well, it's not like I have a choice.

PS: Thank you Kuntet for the Nasi Goreng at nights and making the dapur berasap sikit.

Fizzo.

Labels: Iced-Out.

fr3shjiv3 @ 4:47 PM

Monday, October 26, 2009

The Hard Life of Being Short.

IPPT Results
2.4KM - 10.2mins
Pull Ups - 8
Sit Ups - 49
Shuttle Run - 9.9secs
SBJ - 1.78m -.-'

Labels: KNNBCCB Kaopey.

fr3shjiv3 @ 2:11 PM

Thursday, October 22, 2009

For awhile, I'll be distinct. I elicit when it was mine. Smiling to myself, how times flies. It's already 10 months huh? I had a chance to turn back time. I will jettison in dismay, cause because of my past I may not be where I am right now. In forty seven days, two of my homeboys will soon be with the government. Then another six months time, another homeboy will soon join them two. Two in the police force, one in civil defense. Look on the bright side, we're all under the Home Team. Then again, remebering the times we had in secondary school days. Suddenly, all of us are in NS.

And so, welcome to adulthood. & my last teen birthday is in less than a month.
Let's hope it's special.

fr3shjiv3 @ 10:17 AM

Monday, October 5, 2009

Injured and burnout.

It's the big boys league now.

Gym on weekdays, party on the weekends.

To Thailand with HUFC December before mid season starts,

tired of looking at the same old bench.

I wanna be out there.

Hope I get the scholarship and off to Indonesia bby.

$5000 per month and full time-football.

Chase chase chase, run run run.

This will be for you Pa.

I'll update when I have time.

fr3shjiv3 @ 5:29 PM

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

"Jika seseorang itu hadir di dalam hidop aku,

dan menjadi sebahagian daripada hidup aku.

Tapi ada sebab-sebab yang tentu dikau terpaksa pergi.

Jangan terlalu sedih, terima kenyataan itu.

Sekurang-kurangnya dikau pernah membahagiakan aku."

"Jodoh telah ditentukan oleh Tuhan dan saya sebagai hambanya,

perlu berusaha dan tawakal agar mendapat jodoh yang direstui Allah.

Insya'llah."

Aku takut,aku sudah tidak tahu apa yang aku telah membuat.

"Adapun setiap manusia itu akan melakukan kesalahan,

Di mana wujudnya penyesalah.

Namun, penyesalan itu harus di dahulukan dengan taubat.

Kita harus kenal diri, siapa kita,hati kita,nafsu kita dan sebagainya."

Hidup aku penuh dengan maksiat.

"Kita hendaklah jujur,yakin,ikhlas dan sabar. Sesungguhnya Allah tetap menerima segala taubatnya. Dengan mengalukan segala yang disuruh dan menjauhkan diri dari apa yang dilarangkan."

"Allah tidak akan mengubah nasib seseorang itu jikalau seseorang itu tidak mengubah nasibnya sendiri.

Iman tidak akan datang sendiri dikalau tidak dicari.

Kadang-kadang Allah menyumbikan matahari,

dia mendatangnya petir dan kilat.

Kita tertanya kemananya hilang,

rupa-rupanya dia mendatang pelangi."

Aku,Indra Azriely mengaku kalah. Aku redha.

fr3shjiv3 @ 9:45 PM

Saturday, September 5, 2009

Talk about an eternal,
waiting for girlfriend's call was one as well.

I guess she's busy with her shoot,

oh well.

See. I'm done with the chores.

A good son I am. & how time flies.
You can also see how bored I am.

by the times that I have updated today.

I want to put on a plastic face when mum comes back,

and ask her for ten bucks to buy ciggs.

Heh heh heh.

fr3shjiv3 @ 5:12 PM

#1.

Indra Azriely
I do whatever pleases,
no one can stop me.

I live for the weekends,
party, wasted and hang with the big boys.
I'm a part-time footballer and I skate,
yet I'm forever delinquent.
I'mma keep it real to you homeboys.

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Homies.

Aisyah.
Azri I.
Azrin
Catty.
Chafeka.
Dayang.
Diandra.
Didi.
Efa.
EJ Kuntet.
Feena.
Fieka.
Hidayah.
Ira.
Irfan.
M.
Mahirah.
Nyna.
RaddyB.
Shasha.
Shidah.
Seetee 'Homegirl'.
Syahirah.

It's all nonsense to me.